oh crap it's tuesday. again.

i went to choose a title and i was going to do something along the lines of Oh...and i already had one that i've used before that came up in my auto-complete so decesion made.

 

"There is no failure except in no longer trying. "

~ Elbert Hubbard

 

 

 

yes. thank you Elbert. because lets face it folks. my february goal is not going to happen. i don't even have a final draft for my short. so that means that my goal of having it filmed and done by february is not going to happen. but, i have a new draft of the script. also i was really sick for a week and then pretty sick for the next week, then it was my birthday, quarter life crisis keeping me busy.  

 

so here i go. it's not tuesday. but i'm posting a blog. and today i write!

Lessons.

i found this. and i love it.

  

#3 is most applicable to me.  When i read this i was like. YES! yes, making mistakes is okay and yes, having no idea what i'm really doing is okay. i'm doing it, i'm doing something.

Update this week.

1. I edited my short script. 

2. i woke up this morning feeling like i was hit by a mac truck

3. spring is coming to new york city

4. i have a paying gig to film someone's first vlog post. I will post the finished project here.

5. i finally took a class on the iMovie software and i don't want to brag, but i totally impressed the guy with how much i had figured out on my own.

 

This next week. what will i do...what will i do...my hope is to have a final draft of my script and then to start storyboarding/shot listing the script and casting so hopefully, the last weekend of february i can film it. It's also the week leading up to my birthday so my goal is to not have a nervous breakdown about turning 25 and still working at a big coffee corporation that will remain unnamed.

 

What do you think about the picture posted above? Which number can you relate to most?

and the beginning of another month.

February 1st. 

fun fact of the month. i'm turning 25 on the 20th.

Growing up. i've been thinking about this a lot. i've been thinking about how i got to where i am and where i want to go in the future and how i'm going to get there. in this train of thought i've been thinking about how when your younger it seems like everybody is invested in your future. everybody is willing to help you get to college, pass the test, but then there comes a time in one's adult life where you realize that the large group is gone. 

Not in the sense that i don't have people supporting me, but in the sense that i should have my life figured out by now. that i should be in some career already, on the track to get married.  But here i am turning 25, and i feel the same about the rest of my life as i did at 16, actually i feel less uncertain about the future than i did when i was 16.  

So here i am an adult. it's official. i've got bills, obligations and back pain.  I really never thought i would grow up, i never thought i'd make it this far. i never really thought past my 21st birthday. for some reason i didn't think what life would be like.  

Now i've got to find the strength inside myself to make my dreams come true. i don't have a coach helping to make it to the Olympics, i don't have a school system helping me to figure out what i would like to do with forever.  

It's just me and the future. It will become what i make it. no excuses, i can't point fingers. 

Therefore, here i go. This month I WILL edit and shoot my short film. I will have to change some things around, because it was originally set during christmas. but i'm going to do it, even if it sucks.

February will be a month full of life and not missed opportunities.

 

Where did you think you would be? Are you where you want to be in life?