February 1st.
fun fact of the month. i'm turning 25 on the 20th.
Growing up. i've been thinking about this a lot. i've been thinking about how i got to where i am and where i want to go in the future and how i'm going to get there. in this train of thought i've been thinking about how when your younger it seems like everybody is invested in your future. everybody is willing to help you get to college, pass the test, but then there comes a time in one's adult life where you realize that the large group is gone.
Not in the sense that i don't have people supporting me, but in the sense that i should have my life figured out by now. that i should be in some career already, on the track to get married. But here i am turning 25, and i feel the same about the rest of my life as i did at 16, actually i feel less uncertain about the future than i did when i was 16.
So here i am an adult. it's official. i've got bills, obligations and back pain. I really never thought i would grow up, i never thought i'd make it this far. i never really thought past my 21st birthday. for some reason i didn't think what life would be like.
Now i've got to find the strength inside myself to make my dreams come true. i don't have a coach helping to make it to the Olympics, i don't have a school system helping me to figure out what i would like to do with forever.
It's just me and the future. It will become what i make it. no excuses, i can't point fingers.
Therefore, here i go. This month I WILL edit and shoot my short film. I will have to change some things around, because it was originally set during christmas. but i'm going to do it, even if it sucks.
February will be a month full of life and not missed opportunities.
Where did you think you would be? Are you where you want to be in life?
I had no idea where I thought I'd be...maybe working a regular job, paying bills and living on my own. I never thought I'd be engaged (I never even expected to have a boyfriend) or living in a foreign country working as a nanny, and not in my field of studies. But alas, God is always surprising me with His plans. So maybe I'm not where I had imagined, but I don't mind where I am.
ReplyDeleteHa, I'm with Autumn. I had no idea. But definitely not in New York taking improv class and writing a blog! And I guess I'm not really where I want to be yet...maybe when I'm starring in films with Zac Efron.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for posting a comment. i can see that this is an issue that everybody deals with and everybody has a habit of not talking about. but here we are talking about it!
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